The endless thoughts of fighting, shouting still remain in my head
Mind filled with despair
Bits and pieces of ash crumble apart to the floor unknowingly, without care
Hands clenched into one, waiting for a remedy
Hot air closing in this tight capacity
When will this be over, will we ever see the Light?
Or shall we fall deep, spiraling into darkness within.
-Feiya
What a proud dad I am! Feiya is really blossoming in her drawings. She’s had a new iPad since Christmas and it’s really helping her excel with her renderings. She has a dream of designing video games. I say she could do anything she wants. She’s that good in everything she does. I’m very fortunate.
Wow! What a year! Think back to February 2020. If we only knew then what we know now! What would we do different? It probably wouldn’t be much. If the world is going to burn, it’s going to burn. I’ve tried to stay pretty optimistic through the year. It’d be a lie if I told you that I wasn’t a little nervous from time to time. Well, maybe a little more than a little nervous. 😐
I can honestly say it wasn’t a too bad of year for myself or Dana. It was Feiya that had to make the biggest adjustment. She’s been literally stuck in this house for almost a year. The thing that worries me most is that she likes it. It doesn’t look like she’s going back to school this year.
Feiya turned 13 years old this past week. We celebrated by letting her open some presents the morning of her b-day. That afternoon I took her to the optometrist and we paired her up to her first pair of glasses. I think every kid wears glasses these days. On the way home I bought her dinner at one her favorite restaurants, Cafe Zupas. They serve some damn good soup!
On Sunday we ordered out from one of our favorite sushi restaurants, Sushi Mon. I was skeptical, but the food was phenomenal. All they’re rolls are half off right now as well. It was a good few days.
Feiya has become interested in anime these past months and it’s been influencing her drawings. I’ve seen her watching drawing lessons on YouTube and practicing in her sketch pad. I wish she had that passion for her homework. But I get it, anime and drawing are so much more fun than math. I’m finding that teaching is a tough nut to crack. Teachers earn their pay and I’m not sure if that’s a job for me.
So, here’s a proud dad moment for me. I’m very glad she’s found something that she can express herself with. This was done with the Ibix app on her iPhone. She wants a new iPad for Christmas so she could have a bigger screen. Of course, Ibix isn’t available on Android or PC. We’ll see how her grades go.
